Are We There Yet?
No. Plain and simple. There won’t be a definitive end to this journey, short of divorce. Even then, I still get to live with the burden of knowing that I’m not worth being faithful to. I will never get married again. I know- “never say never”. Fuck that. I can honestly say, it will take a miracle to get me into this position EVER AGAIN. Seriously, how the hell can I ever trust anyone again? I feel like I’m beating a dead horse here. Life seems to be moving right along as usual for him. I just do not understand how he can live with himself. Or even look at me every day after what he has done. Does he think because I don’t bring it up that I am over it? Far from it, dear. Faaaarrrr from it. I don’t know if I will ever be over it.
Day To Day
I have stopped seeing my therapist. I don’t think it helped. It was nice to go bullshit with someone, but we spent more time listening to HIM talk, rather than me.
SIDE NOTE – This entry was started and never finished on November 28th, 2017.